Day 11

my family:

my mother is my rock. ive watched her go through everything and come out shining. she has been through so much yet she can still smile and wake up happy every morning. even though i dont show my love for her enough i hope she knows how much she means to me. we arent very close and really never have been but she is and will always be my mother. i know that she will be there for me no matter what.

my father well what can i say about him? im a daddys girl. my dad has always been on my side. i love him. ive watched him also go through for some very terrible things and he has also come out shining. what hes been through and what he put my family through is hard to even talk about but hes a better person for it and he has made us a stronger family unit because of it. im greatful for him.

my brother this is one isnt very hard for me. i love my brother and now we are so much closer its kind of back to how it use to be when i was little. hes protective and i love him for it. and the fact that we are back to having a great relationship just proves that family no matter how distant you become will always come back stronger than ever. hes a great guy and an even better brother. im greatful to have such a great brother because i know he is special.

my grandmother well theres a lot of hurt feelings there. but she is my grandmother and i will love her but to be truthful the only reason i love her is because she is related, i feel bad for saying that but i cant and wont lie about it.

my cousin, sissy, she is probably the one family member that i am closest too. she is strong and she is one of my role models. we know so much about eachother and hang out so much. i am greatful for her. shes beautiful inside and out and i love her to death.

the rest of my family i am not very close with but they are still family and they will always be loved by me and they are a great family to have. its the best feeling in the world to know that they will always be there for me and i for them.

Day 10

shuffle and the first ten songs:

1. I'm in-keith urban

2. take a bow- glee cast

3. we are broken- paramore

4. last name- carrie underwood

5. which to bury, us or the hatchet- relient k

6. believe- yellowcard

7. who's crying now- saving jane

8. i wanna know- joe

9. boy like me- jessica harp

10. last resort- papa roach

Day 9

How important I think education is:

Well as all my friends know I believe that education is probably one of the most things we can achieve. Learning new things and developing new "jacks of the trade" as they say will help the country and the generations to come. Instead of learning only one aspect of school, say the thing you want to do for the rest of your life, you have the option of learning and taking all sorts of classes and developing and having the option of doing more than one thing for the rest of your life. i love education i think that we as a country take it for advantage and i think we need to realize how important it is for our future it will make us a better and stronger country and hey maybe even help our economy.

Day 8

What i ate today... to me this is a waste of a day but hey if you all want to know what i consumed today here it is...

-oatmeal

-left over Japanese steak house shrimp, rice, and veggies

-spaghetti with meat sauce and mushrooms with garlic bread

-brownies

Day 7

Five pet peeves:

i have a lot of pet peeves but these are the ones that came to mind first.

1. guys judging girls based on their cup size.

2. Couples who sit on the same side of the booth when there is no one on the other side.

3. People who invite you out somewhere then cancel.

4. People who go the wrong way in a parking lot.

5. Conversational High-Fives: High-fiving at any time other than when one is actively playing a sport

Day 6

Thoughts on mainstream music.

Well to be honest I kind of like mainstream music. its not like a guilty pleasure but its usually how i find songs that i end up falling in love with. and playing over and over again. mainstream music isnt all i listen to but for the most its whats on my ipod and the radio. i do think that the radio tends to ruin songs because they play them to death.

Day 5

Things I want to say to an ex:

hmm well where to begin?

You had everything when you had me. i loved being around you. you were my best friend. i know exactly where we went wrong. it was not ones fault over the other, it was a combination of both of our faults. i still love you and i love what we had. but to be honest i am not sure we can ever have what we had. i felt judged. i feel like i was never the one you truly wanted to be with. yes it is partly because of my insecurities. but you still hurt me. you still judge me. you say youll miss me when i move, but i dont know if i believe you. i miss you and then i think of something you said or did and realize we never made the other better. we fought and cried more then laughing and joking around. we use to be the couple and the relationship i wanted so bad every since i was a young girl. and then we turned into something i never wanted to be a part of. in the end we reminded me so much of my parents and i never want to be in a relationship like my parents. there are still things that bother me; like why could you never do something just because it makes me happy? why were you so selfish? was i that bad of a girlfriend? in the end were you trying to get me to breakup with you so you didnt have to? what bothers me the most is the day you called me fat. i still cry about it. i am very sensitive about my weight. and i probably always will be. You knew the story of my past and used that against me. i never thought you would be the one person who would use my past against me. I hope if you ever read this you dont take this the wrong way. I am grateful for what we had and what we were. I grew up a lot this past year and i know you did too. You are a great guy and will find someone that you will find worthy of doing things for and not just because you feel obligated but because you want that person happy. I still love you and you will always have a piece of my heart but i know that we can never be as close as we once were. Our past is too much a part of me and its all i see or think about when i talk to you. im sorry we ended the way we did but its better this way its better than hating eachother. so to end this i think i should say thank you for what you did and gave me. we were once great but things and people change. thank you for being my best friend for so long. thank you for everything i got to experience with you. i guess in general thank you :) and i know youll succeed and find a wonderful life.

Day 4

Bullet my whole day:

- listen to music

- talk to murphy sunshine

-wishing i was out of this town

-go on tumblr

-sleep

-watch friends with benifits

-get ready to hang out with murphy sunshine

-watch flipped

-get starbucks

-got a phone call about a douche

-watch heartbreakers

-had an insightful conversation with murphy sunshine

-ate dinner with the second family

-watch dr. who

-looked at halloween costumes

-looked up some cute baseball players

-talked to mom

-made a plan for tomorrow

-tumblr

-music

-watch jenna marbles videos on youtube

-update my iphone and ipod

-drive home

-sleep :)

Day 3

A book I love

Well this one is pretty hard for me since im a book reader. I live on books. But i guess the one that stands out to me i think would be for one more day by Mitch Albom. I remember reading this for the first time in high school, it was on the school reading list, and i was just so touched by the story. It reminded me of my grandmother who died when i was 13/14. I remember sitting there reading it and thinking about how great it would be for her to have that last day. I still own that book and sometimes when im really missing her ill read it. Mitch Albom is a great author i have yet to read book by him that i hate.

Day 2

Something i feel strongly about:

well to be honest i feel strongly about a lot of things. But the thing i feel most strongly about would have to be being true to yourself. No matter how many people judge you or hate you for it. I learned a long time ago you cant make everyone happy, believe me ive tried, and it just isnt worth it. As long as youre happy with yourself and who you are inside then everything else doesnt matter. In the end it will always be ok. So be crazy and do and say whatever you want because theres a saying ive heard since i was young and it might be cliche but cliches are not always bad. It goes "those who mind dont matter. and those who matter dont mind."