Day 16

Something i always think "what if..." about:

hmm well thats a long list but i guess the one thing i always think "what if" about would have to be what if i hadnt moved home and hadnt dated jose again. would my life be any better or any worse? since this is the most recent thing that has happened to me it is probably my biggest what if. i dont regret anything especially anything i did in this past year. it has made me stronger. its just one of those things. i have been really hurt this past year and i guess in some way i was wondering if i wouldnt have gotten hurt like i did or would it have been worse. who knows and to be honest im glad i did the things i did this past year. i got closer to a really great friend that i know will be there through all of my ups and downs and i realized even more i have to do what is best for myself. this post i realize might seem like a huge oxymoron. but i think that you can wonder what if about something yet not regret it or want to change the way things happened.